Let's start today with a to do list:
-clean Miss Kitty's litter box ¥
-clean my dishes ¥
-take pills ¥
-email/research for quest ¥
-ORB
-ANY AND ALL HOMEWORK I HAVE
-clean up desk
-pick up/organize room a bit
-work on blog
-work on PSA idea ¥
-*optional* work out
-*optional* work on Girl's Sugar
Now I am expecting myself to get ALL (except *optional*) of these things done. I will even so no to my ma's plans if I have to (which I never do).
It took a lot of effort to get up this morning, but I am determined to get this to do list done.
11:25 am
I just got out of my shower, but before I got in it my ma told me that we're going to see Cat (which I don't mind) and exchanging my bras (which I'll doubt they'll let us do). I have no choice so I'll have to comply, but I won't change my outfit (PE shorts and T-shirt). I will, if I have to, say how I've never had an outwardly bitchy moment in my 17 and 3/4 years of life and I will when it comes to my clothes today because I had my plans, and they are actually good things!
11:50 am
...wow...I couldn't do it. I actual changed my fucking outfit. Where'd all that self-righteousness go?
11:57 am
It's not that I don't want to visit Cat, I just don't understand why we have to go everyday. I was told the night before she was committed that she didn't want visitors. In fact, I think we're her problem. She NEEDS a break from us, to get away.
5:06 pm
I JUST got home. It was supposed to be quick. Goddess I hate the mall. Well at least I got 3 new bras, a hat, garter belt, and tights/stockings (which I'm dying to try on). Going to work on my to do list now. First thing I'm doing is take my pills and email.
10:56 pm
So I barely did anything on my list.
IM SO FUCKING STRESSED! TOO MUCH IS HAPPENING IN THIS FUCKING MONTH! IT SHOULD BE CALLED THE MARCH IF STRESS! JUST MAKE IT ALL FUCKING STOP PLEASE!
So, as of late I have been sleeping a lot (and still feeling tired all the damn time) and been having trouble with eating (either I eat a LOT or can't eat very much...but I have lost A LOT if weight) so I am getting rather concerned about my health.
I really wished I knew where my fat went...it just disappeared without warning...didn't even say goodbye…
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