*WARNING: explicit content*
Entry title: Not Schiz
To do list:
-feed cats ¥
-take pills ¥
-voice over ¥
-QUEST ¥
-ORB ¥
-ANY AND ALL HOMEWORK I HAVE
-clean up desk
-pick up/organize room a bit
-pack ¥
-*optional* blog ¥
-*optional* work out
-*optional* work on Girl's Sugar
I feel so wrong right now. What right do I have to help a girl with schizophrenia, to tell her that her hallucinations are lying to her, that she should live and fight on. What right do I have to do that to her? On top of that, while she's crying to me that she should die, here I sat working on drama homework, rehearsing my lines in my oh so fake British accent. What a ducking joke. I'm terrible. I just want to help her. I'm so scared. I asked some pagan/Wiccan groups I'm in for help with making a healing charm of some sort for her so I can send it to her. They've calmed me down with their kind and eager responses.
I've one again gone through the day feeling highs and lows. I know I'm not bi-polar, but I sometimes feel like I might be, which I have no right too (besides my ma being manic depressive). I'm just a teenager dealing with issues, nothing more. My therapist says I'm pretty sane for what I deal with at home.
Sleeping has become this weird task as of late. I can't figure how to lay at night anymore but in always sleepy.
Journal entries from those teeny years to my now young adult self. Nonbinary and in a functionally dysfunctional family. I'll talk about mental health and LGBT+ problems a lot. I WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW: WE'RE NOT ALONE. I tried to write word-for-word what I had written, but being dyslexic, I have terrible handwriting. There will be many typos, but that is because I write/type my journal entries rather quickly.
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