Day: May 5, 2016
Certain Emotion on Time of Day:
Weather:
What I ate
-Morning: omelet with ham and cheese
-Noon:
-Night: Mexican food
-Snack:
Menstrual: N/A
Who I was with: Ryan 10:25AM-5:50PM Ryan
When I was alone:
Stressors [depressed]: spilled hot tea down my shirt, had a
little bad luck streak, today was my Papou’s anniversary of his death
Contributors [happy]: felt pretty today even without makeup
(besides lipstick and face pearl), dressed up like a fairy/gypsy, did tarot
readings, made a tumblr for Maiden Fae, got my final new shirt
Dreams:
Sleep: 1:55AM-4:25AM 4:30AM-5:50AM 6:05AM-8:40AM
Moon Phase: Waning Crescent
Illness:
What I feel: I was rather anxious this morning and didn’t want
to leave the safety at my bed. So I began to message Ryan, making up in my mind
that I’ll go to school if he wanted me to come. Me: “Hey You on?” He started
taking too long so I was about to text him, but then he answered back. R: ”yeah
at cafeteria atm” Me: “I think I might just stay home. In feeling really safe
under my bed's comforter. That is, unless, you really want me to come and to
see me. If I hear that, I'll get over it and get up. Not saying I don't think
you love me, nothing like that. I just feel safe and comfortable here. But if I
have a reason to go, like you wanting to see me, I'll drop my anxiety and go. *I'm”
He once again began to take too long to reply so I called him through FB
messenger to get his attention. R: “I will go on skype in a sec” Me: “Sorry,
did that to get your attention Wasn't really trying to call you” R: “oh, ok.
sorry I took to long to respond” Me: “I need you to respond ASAP right now Cuz
I need to know if I'm staying or going And I only have 20min to get ready” I only
had that long because my ma had to leave for an appointment and she was my
ride. R: “You can stay in bed if you want to, I am fine with just skyping with
you” Me: “Are you sure?” I think there was a huge part of me that wanted him to
say that he wanted me to be there. R: “You seem like you need some rest, and I
don't want to make you come here if you don't really want to Besides, now we
can chat while you are in the comfort of your bed” Me: “...I don't know what I
want or don't want” R: “is everything alright?” Me: “Yeah I'm just a li'l
anxious, nothing serious I just don't know” R: “Do you want to talk about it?”
Me: “That's all there is to it” R: “I would love to have you here, but if you
need rest, then don't push yourself” Me: “It's not that I need rest” R: “Do you
want to come so we can cuddle? You still there? I hope you feel better soon” I had
gotten up and was getting ready, not having a chance to stop and respond, thus
why he was sending those messages. Me: “Sorry I didn't respond sooner, I was
getting ready. See you in maybe 20min.” My tarot readings were positive for the
most part, and according to one person I did it for, was accurate. So that made
me really happy. I’ve been happily chatting with a couple girls from tinder and
whatnot. Ryan claims he recognizes one of the girls as someone from his school
and finds it incredibly weird that she’s claiming not to recognize or remember
him. She thinks I’m funny, pretty, cute, and romantic, so I’m cool with that. I’m
such a flirt though XD Made a tumblr for my blog: maidenfae.tumblr.com
Shopping Spree: bought lots of food for myself and Ryan
Started Projects: Maiden Fae tumblr
Continued Projects:
Canceled Projects:
Finished Projects:
Homework: math Tuesday 05/10
Tests: N/A
Did You Take Your
Medicine?: Yes
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