Day: May 15 Sunday 2016
Certain Emotion on Time of Day:
Weather:
What I ate
-Morning: chocolate chip pancakes and scrambled eggs 11:45AM
-Noon:
-Night: chili 7:40PM
-Snack: chips, Nutella
Menstrual: N/A
Who I was with:
When I was alone:
Stressors [depressed]: Bunny lost it this morning, still
haven’t gotten things done
Contributors [happy]: dressed up, did cool special effects
makeup, caught up with an old friend
Dreams:
Sleep: 2:30AM-9:55AM
Moon Phase: Waxing Gibbous
Illness: N/A
What I feel: Bunny started cooking breakfast for everyone, but
I guess things started going wrong. She came into my room shortly after I woke
up and asked if I’d help so I said yes and came down after I went to the
bathroom. Suddenly things got really frustrating for her so she was showing
that she was highly aggravated. Bear came to get OJ but then tried helping
Bunny when she saw she was struggling. Bear tried helping her calm down but
that only pissed her off so she began yelling and screaming. My ma heard the
commotion and immediately came out, so we left it to her. I went into my room,
locked the door, and called Ryan. I was numb actually. Usually I am a lot more
panicked, maybe close to the point of tears, but I was doing better. Maybe it
was the medication or just the familiarity of it. Bunny finished the breakfast
eventually and we all ate with her. She really did lose it, though. She said
she was angry because Bear tried to help her. She was saying how it was obvious
that she was “slaving away” in the kitchen because we could hear and help from
people would have been nice, but I didn’t hear anything, I literally had just
gotten up, she could still have been asleep for all I knew. Apparently my ma
was going to cook with her, but Bunny started without warning or asking for
help. My makeup for today was pretty cool. All I did was the scar, but it
turned out nicely. I really liked the dress, wig, and simplicity of the outfit
and look. The character I dressed up as today actually does bare similarities
to Bunny. They’re verbally abusive and is the older sister (not to mention both
naturally blonde with green eyes). You want to feel bad for them, you want them
to be happy, but it’s hard when they act so nasty and preventing themselves
from being happy. They’re prejudice, judgmental, rude, and pessimist. This
isn’t the only big sister that has a similarity to Bunny. I have another one
where they’re even the same age difference as her and me. I think both
instances were accidental and subconscious, but it really says a lot with how I
might view older sisters sometimes. I don’t hate these characters. I do feel
bad for and pity them, but I also recognize their negative quite a lot. I think
it really does reflect Bunny quite a bit. I hate feeling like I’m villain-izing
her, but she makes it too easy not to. Oh, I was gonna try to write one of my
essays, at least the psych, or maybe even try to organize my paper stuff and
drawing…yeah, no…didn't happen.
Shopping Spree:
Started Projects:
Continued Projects:
Canceled Projects:
Finished Projects:
Homework: math Thursday 05/19 Gender Comm Thursday 05/19 4PM
Tests: Psych test Wednesday 05/11 Psych Final Wednesday 05/18
Math Final Thursday 05/19
Did You Take Your
Medicine?: Yes
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