Friday, April 22, 2016

Mood Journal {Pump, Pump, Pump It UP}

Day: April 20 Wednesday 2016
Certain Emotion on Time of Day:
Weather:
What I ate
-Morning: waffles with butter and syrup 11:20AM
-Noon: hot pocket
-Night: mac’n’cheese 8:40PM
-Snack: tapioca pudding
Menstrual: I believe I started this evening, but it could be spotting
Who I was with: 12:45PM-1:20PM
When I was alone: before 12:45PM after, 1:20PM
Stressors [depressed]: leg covered with mosquito bites, ma went into surgery
Contributors [happy]: cut off my ex’s
Dreams: There was yet another clusterfuck of dreams, but a separation this time. The first dream, apparently my ex’s were supernatural beings and I came out to Ryan that I was one too, in fact, I was Death, a Grimm Reaper. He was accepting of it and me. In another dream, we were on a bus together to his house. When we got there, not much was able to happen and he refused to come over to my house. Eventually I was upset but had to leave anyway because of the time and decided to go. I was even more upset because he didn’t offer to walk me out or ask his dad if he’d give me a ride home. After a while, since I was just going to walk all the way home, I came back and asked Ryan if he’d ask his dad to give me a ride and he said he would. In another dream, I don’t remember the beginning of it, but for some reason Ryan had a female reproductive system on his lower half, like he got changed or something. So I guess we decided to have sex and I began pleasing him successfully. I woke up shortly after the sex started. No lesbian porn for me I guess, what a shame.
Sleep: 12:35AM-5:15AM, 5:30AM-6:15AM 6:20AM-6:25AM 6:35AM-8:15AM 8:20AM-10:00AM
Moon Phase: Waning Crescent
Illness: N/A
What I feel: I blocked my ex's on Facebook, Skype, and kik. I doubt they will even notice since they never seem to take notice of me anyway. I'm still peeved but a lot better. This all makes me really happy actually. Happy that I'm not with those dumbasses. And now I'm in a really happy and healthy relationship. I also got experience and now know what to avoid and look for. I'm pissed if they go through with starting a triad again, and not cuz they broke up with me, just because they are gonna mess with someone else's feelings and hurt them because they don't realize how terrible of an idea this is. I worked out and organized my laundry.
Shopping Spree:
Started Projects: wrote a song, organized laundry
Continued Projects:
Canceled Projects:
Finished Projects: wrote a song, organized laundry, workout
Homework: psych essay Wednesday 04/27
Tests: N/A
Did You Take Your Medicine?: Yes

No comments:

Post a Comment