Mood Journal {Late Night Chats}

Day: February 25, 2016

Certain Emotion on Time of Day: a little depressed but active in early morning, calmed by noon, got super fucking tired by 6:30PM

Weather: 50˚-76˚ sunny

What I ate

-Morning: froot loops 7:00PM

-Noon: lemon chicken and potatoes 12:05PM

-Night: stew and rice 8:45PM

-Snack: scones with clotted cream, toasted English Muffin with butter, pudding

Menstrual: N/A

Who I was with: 7:30AM-9:05AM class, 9:10AM-2:00PM friends and Ryan (off and on), 2:00PM-6:30PM work

When I was alone:

Stressors [depressed]: bad dream, test, bad luck streak, a bunch of guys keep sending likes to my profile

Contributors [happy]: feel like I aced my test, nice chat with my friend, might have met some girls interested in joining the triad…or just more possible friends

Dreams: I don’t remember much of what led up to it, but I remember I did something that pissed off Ryan’s twin and I felt horrible about it, so I went to the bathroom, partly so I could cry, and partly because I needed to. But on the way to the bathroom and in the bathroom, everything that could go wrong, did, and besides me slipping in something I could only assume was urine and hurting myself, and not being able to fully sit on the disgusting toilets, other things had happened that put me in a bad mood. So I was feeling very depressed, and when I came back to my friends so I could cry to Ryan, everyone was gone because they had to go to class. Then, shortly after, I went home, but I didn’t want my ma or Bunny to see me the way I was, so I avoided them. I didn’t want to explain to them my depression and that I wanted professional help, and part of it was that I felt they would judge me or that I had to prove to them that I was depressed.

Sleep: 11:45AM-4:15AM 4:45AM-5:15AM

Moon Phase: Waning Gibbous

Illness: N/A

What I feel: My dream has sorta put me out of funk. Although, when I woke up this morning, despite it being early, I was wide awake. Going back under my blanket to sleep more sounded nice, but unnecessary. Bad luck streak hit me, from going to class late to lemon and oil leaking in my bag all over my stuff and then some. But I tried to be optimistic and eventually the bad luck left I guess. Though I was a bit bummed that Ryan was playing video games instead of cuddling with me. Oh well. Calm day at work. Super tired for some reason. Though, I’m had a nice chat with a possible third…hmm~ so I have hope. Gonna tell Ryan about her as soon as he gets home and we Skype.

Shopping Spree: N/A

Started Projects: N/A

Continued Projects: N/A

Canceled Projects: N/A

Finished Projects: N/A

Homework: gender comm due Tuesday 2/23 (half done)

Tests: Math Test Thursday 2/25, Psych test Monday 2/29

Did You Take Your Medicine?: Yes