My dream last night was very interesting, it was like a combination of Hellraiser (or insert something by Clive Barker) and The Magus Bride (which I unfortunately haven't read or watched yet but REALLY want to). The girl of the dream was to be "married off" (in most simplest of terms) to this man very much like the Lead Cenobite/Pinhead/Priest from Hellbound Heart and/or Christopher Carrion from the Abarat series. But despite his appearance, position, powers, and some actions, he wasn't a bad person, though the girl was too scared to realize that at first and was very anti going through with it, constantly being rude to him and trying to run away and be free of his horrifying world. Though, she did come to realize he wasn't evil after he save her (maybe more than once) and even showed concern for her despite his small range of emotions (at least to the general public). The two eventually develop real feelings for each other. So actually, there was like this thing, were he couldn't have sex with her or something until their union was made official.
There was another portion of the dream which was supposed to be a kid show. There was more aspects than the one I'm about to say, but this is really one of the few I can remember. There was this guy who was dating another guy who loves to wear "women's clothes" and dressed fully "in drag." He wasn't transgender, just a transvestite. They'd usually go out into town on their dates with the one in drag. And the best part is, everyone in town was totally cool with it. They were well aware the crossdresser was actually a male (and not because he looked it, he looked very much like a woman) and they were completely alright with him being a transvestite and then being a gay couple. Like no one made a big deal about it, no one made any comments or anything. They were acting like it was completely normal. Nobody asked crude or stupid questions, like "what's in your pants," "is the transvestite the woman in the relationship," stuff like that. They minded their own business and treated them like everyone else. You go, kid show. That's how it should be.
(12 in the morning close to 1) Imma try to finish the sprites for Sakiko's homicidal end tonight, scan the CG's in the morning, then work on their digital versions tomorrow, and write and draw victim after that.
So scratch the first pint of that plan. I'll take care of the sprites tomorrow. It's getting late. Hopefully I'll be able to sleep despite how fucking hungry I feel.
09/29/2016
So I've stayed at a similar weight for about 2 months, so that's a huge accomplishment for me! Oh, and I have 2 solo parts in a song I'm singing in my vocal class. It's from Annie Get Your Gun. It's a fun, optimistic song called I Got the Sun in the Mornin', basically about being happy despite not having much. So I relate to it quite a bit.
To do list (9.28.16 7:25AM):
-Sprites for homicidal end ¥ 9.28
-Scan CG's for homicidal end ¥ 9.28
-Digital CG's for homicidal end ¥ 9.30
-Write and Draw CG's for victim end ¥ 9.28
-Sprites for victim end (if necessary) ¥ 9.28
-Digital CG's for victim end¥ 9.30
10/01/2016
Bunny REALLY wanted someone to go to the Pumpkin Patch with her, but I don't want to go anywhere with her. I was even willing to hide in my bathroom for her to leave, gods know how long that's take... But I did have actual valid reasons to say no, like homework and my art projects that have a due date, but I know if I tell her those, she'll think I'm just making shit up to avoid her and she'll get pissy and upset. Eventually, it died out and I felt rather silly for having hid in the bathroom (a plan that failed once my father had given away my position before she left). She never did leave and instead watched TV with my parents. They invited me to come join them, but I told them I was working on homework. Which was going to be the truth, but since it was technically due Tuesday, I was lacked about it and instead worked on my Halloween Countdown since that had some things that needed to be done by tomorrow. Despite my family thinking I was doing homework, they made fun of me for staying in my room like an introvert.
I had my last pill of Ritalin today, and my dad was supposed to take me to the pharmacy today (where I had planned to also get a menstrual cup to avoid future UTI's and heat wrap things for my shoulder/neck), but he forgot, just like he did on Thursday. My parents said we'd go first thing in the morning. I sure hope we do. I don't want to experience withdrawal with Ritalin. Luckily, just in case, I do have my old Ritalin as the one I'm currently taking is for a longer lasting effect, so at least I have a backup plan.
10/02/2016
I just had a very scary brush in with one of my phobias that has now just turned into me getting pissy about it. I was in the garage, looking for 2 specific things, but collecting things I wanna take while I was at it. I had found 2 really cute pairs of goth boots that were near item #1 of that I was looking for, so I decided to add those to my pile (these boots are in the very back of the garage, farthest away from the door). Shortly after much hard labor of searching, I found item #2 and decide it's time to leave, my only exit from my current spot being where the boots are and then the path out, but as I turn to grab the boots, THERE IS A FUCKING BIG ASS WASP JUST CHILLING ON IT. I panic, since that's really one of my only ways out, and so in my desperation, I made my own way out, try not to be too frantic and get it's attention. I scratched my chin on something while trying to quickly get away. Nothing serious, though it might bruise.
A minute later, I go to see if it's still there and it was. This things so big, I can see it all the way in the back while I'm standing in the doorway. So I grab my first pile of stuff not near the wasp, being pissy that it's keeping me from those cute boots and item #1. They're all such fucking assholes, and I'm not ready to find out if I'm allergic to these pieces of shits like my Ma is, especially the hard way.
I tried braving the weather and confronting the asshole, covered head to toe with snow gear. I wasn't about to get bested by a bug. I was too chicken shit. Instead, I just stood in the middle of the garage, singing and talking at it, until I saw if start to move, scaring me to run inside. When I popped my head out, I saw the asshole began walking back and forth on the damn boot like he was patrolling it. All I could think was how this asshole was just taunting. I thought about grabbing a thick cloth or towel and throwing it on top of him and trying to kill him, but was worried about failing and just pissing him off. Anxiety, paranoia, and fear kicked in, so I grudgingly left. What a frickin jerk. Not only are those boots super cute, but item #1 is my gameboy and DS stuff. Do you have any idea how much I could sell that for???
At least I was able to grab my Gameboy Color. For how old it is, it's in pretty good condition. I FUCKING WON WITH MY BRAINS INSTEAD OF BRAWNS AND PLENTY OF COURAGE. So I came out there again, and he wasn't on the boots, but was in the area they were, so I grabbed a pole and was able to get one boot to me. I couldn't pick up anything else with the pole, but I could move things, so I moved the pair of the one I grabbed to be with the rest of my stuff and opened the garage door. When I went outside to collect everything, it was all on the floor away from the garage door because it all fell out, making it distant from the wasp. I collected everything, closed the door, and now we're here.
I took my older Ritalin since my dad didn't pick up my medication until later in the afternoon.
I'm so fucking happy it rained today. I had a nice time with Ryan too and we eve danced in the rain since he owed me a dance in the rain. My Ma took it as an opportunity to get some shots of us. Later, when the rain cleared, my Ma had us model for her photo class.
10/05/2016
Love triangle dream: it was a dream about a movie that follows this gawky shy girl with her first year of high school. She ends up getting a crush for the school's bad boy, who is actually a really nice guy and a drama student. But with her crush, another boy gets a crush on her who is a nerdy sweetheart part of student council. My mind was already turning it into an idea to turn a love triangle into a polyamorous relationship.
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