Mood Journal {I Declare Poly-Curious Be a Term}

Day: June 15 Wednesday 2016 

Certain Emotion on Time of Day: 

Weather: 

What I Ate

-Morning: waffles 8:35AM

-Noon: ribs 1:50PM

-Night: taquitos 5:20PM pizza 9:05PM

-Snack: cinnamon toast

Menstrual: 

Who was I with: 8:55AM-12:45PM boys I babysit

When was I alone: 

Stressors [depressed]: 

Contributors [happy]: tea~

Dreams: 

Sleep: 11:10PM-11:25PM 11:30PM-6:15AM 6:25AM-7:15AM 7:20AM-7:30AM

Moon Phase: 

Illness: 

What I feel: Aw man, I just found out that Melanie Martinez is on tour, but the only date she'll be near me is one of the few that's sold out. Bunny made a comment that made me question polyamory with Ryan. I didn't tell her any details about what we've been doing and how we're looking, but it started when I joked that I can bring Opal as my boyfriend, and she said how it was wrong to even joke about having another significant other when in a relationship, so I said "not if you're poly." Then she said "What about Ryan? It's not fair to him if you're pushing it onto him." So I messaged him, "Does it feel like I'm pushing polyamory on you? Like, you don't feel like it could be for you, but just going along with it to make me happy? Does it make you uncomfortable that I would love another person and do you feel like you can't love anyone other than me (that feels like a strangely selfish question to ask for some reason)?" While waiting around for him, I made a slideshow of every pic I have of Ryan and put it on my computer. I suddenly got song lyrics ideas and wrote a new love song for him. When he finally came on, I had already fallen asleep, but he responded, "It doesn't feel like you are pushing it on me, I think that it would be fun. I would also be happy that there would be someone there for you when I can't be. I have been working a lot and forgetting to chat later. I would be glad to know that you are not lonely when I am away. (again, sorry I forgot to log on X.X)" So I guess you could say Ryan is ~poly-curious~ ...imfunnydammit...

Shopping Spree: 

Started Projects: song writing

Continued Projects: The Astrology of C.S.R.

Canceled Projects: 

Finished Projects: song writing (My Everything)

Did you take your medicine?: Yes