Day: June 25 Saturday 2016
Certain Emotion on Time of Day:
Weather:
What I Ate
-Morning: hot pocket 10:15AM coddled egg 11:45AM
-Noon: tacquitos 2:35PM
-Night: beef teriyaki bento 9:40PM
-Snack: deviled eggs
Menstrual:
Who was I with: family off and on in the day, Erick at night
When was I alone:
Stressors [depressed]:
Contributors [happy]:
Dreams: All of the characters on the team I was playing on wore black or at least dark clothes and had a sort of gothic or punk look to them for the most part (with one or two exceptions). They each had their unique powers, ability, and style. There was a competition or something, and two or so members ended up getting swayed by the other team. Later I dreamt about Ryan.
Sleep: 1:50AM-8:15AM
Moon Phase:
Illness: N/A
What I feel: There's this cool SF Dungeons thing that I might do with Opal, Lily, and Ryan for my birthday. For some reason it kind of bothers me that Ryan doesn't want to take anything seriously. He just wants to act like everything is one big sort of joke almost. It also bothers me that he is downright objecting to ever crossdressing for me privately in a sexual way without any real reason, saying something like it doesn't seem romantic to him. It's not like I'm asking to whip him, pour candle wax on him, wear a strap on and have anal sex with him, all I want is for him to wear a few pieces of clothing for a short amount of time that's going to get taken off anyways. I'd understand if it was something to do with it would turn him off, or something like that, made him incredibly uncomfortable, but if it has something to do with his stupid masculinity bullshit, I'm just annoyed. There's a reason I preferred girls, no macho manly men, but he's like child of testosterone. I love him nonetheless and won't guilt or pressure him into crossdressing, but I want him to at least give me a real excuse. He wants to be able to please me and turn me on, I'd think asking him to put on a few pieces of clothing wouldn't be a problem. I'll talk to him under that light, just ask him for an actual reason. If he wanted me to wear something cuz he thought it was hot, I'd do it for him. I know things don't always work like that, but it really bothers me for some reason that he's so resilient in refusing to even considerate it.
Shopping Spree:
Started Projects: Calling the Quarters
Continued Projects:
Canceled Projects:
Finished Projects: Calling the Quarters (concept sketches)
Did you take your medicine?: Yes
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